I Am 27 Years Old and 99% Sterile:: My Decision to have a Tubal Ligation
As my naked rear-end sat on the paper of my OBGYNs exam table after being checked for dilation the most uncomfortable debate session happened between me, myself and I.
I was debating on signing the consent form for my tubal ligation.
That wasn’t the only intense standoff that day. After I finally brought myself to sign my childbearing abilities away, my doctor began to double and triple check my decision. Making me question what I truly wanted. I’m sure this was typical protocol, especially considering my age.
Deciding to have a tubal ligation after/during my third C-section was one of the most difficult decisions I have ever had to make. Yes, three kids is plenty and I am very content in the size of our family. But I still struggled with the idea of completely committing.
Immediately when I signed that paper, I felt as though I signed my life away along with any unknown life, that I had yet to meet.
Thoughts were racing through my head. I began to think about the miscarriage I had two years prior. Then, I remembered a sweet friend from college whose son passed away way too young. I thought about my best friend and her babies in heaven and I then remembered the moment the doctors thought that my pregnancy with Olive was going to end with a miscarriage.
Why did all these thoughts circle my mind? I believe it was the fear of the unknown.
Olive’s pregnancy was a difficult one. Over and over again, I could be heard saying, I never want to be pregnant again. I had a major blood clot that had to be monitored and I found out at 35 weeks that my uterus was thinning and I was at high risk for a uterine rupture. At the time, my pregnancy was becoming stressful and I wasn’t sure if my body would make it.
We decided to deliver Olive at 38 weeks. My body did it, I made it through. The C-section procedure felt the same as my previous three and the recovery was surprisingly easy this time around.
My doctor was able to perform my tubal ligation during the C-section, so I can’t even pin point when they were preforming the procedure. The process of a tubal ligation includes severing the fallopian tube so that sperm can no longer travel and fertilize the egg.
I have had no known side effects from the procedure. However, this is the first baby that I have dealt with postpartum depression. I also feel like my periods came back a tad heavier…go me.
When I was deep in my postpartum depression, I blamed my husband for talking me into the tubal ligation. Looking at Olive made the fact of never having another baby again hard to handle. I ultimately knew that in my right state of mind, my husband and I made the correct decision for our family TOGETHER.
Deciding to have your tubes tied is an incredibly hard decision, here are the things I had to consider:
- Do you want any more children?
- Can your body withstand being pregnant again?
- Do your religious beliefs support a tubal ligation?
- Is your spouse in agreement?
- Do you feel pressured to have a tubal ligation by your spouse?